Reminded

Many break ups to make up became normal. Not realizing that’s what I use to see and knew as being normal. I made excuses for my behavior and others behavior. The tug and pull back and forth became old and tiring. I decided on change, and it needed to happen, and it did. I can remember waiting for signs of changes which never came without action.

Awaken one early morning, my soul was crying. I realize the breakup begin with me leaving me, stranded, and abandoned. I learned how to give to others and putting what I needed last. I had to develop a relationship with myself. I was a stranger to myself. I had to stop my soul from crying. I begin to apologize for all that I took myself through. Spending quiet times, reading, and writing were things that brought me joy and happiness. It was something that I yearned for.

I begin to break away from toxic behavior and toxic thinking. Setting boundaries and limiting how much time giving to others. Loving and giving to myself is something I look forward to. I would turn off my phone, cut off social media at times, spending that time with myself. I discovered how to love me first. I discovered a new normal. I connect daily with myself. I realize the breakup to make up begin with me. Healing and forgiving myself. It’s tough letting go of people that are not healthy for your well-being. You are blindsided in your mind, emotions, and feelings. Your judgement is clouded. Take the time to heal. You are the source of the problem, not the other person(s). Everything begins with you and finish with you. We have the free will to make decisions. You must decide when it’s time for change. It’s not up to the other person(s). Don’t worry how it supposed to look or happen, just speak it and when you least expect change, it will be. Your life travels will begin to shift and your journey will manifest a multitude greatness in your life.